I don't know how many people on here have gone to bed, and said a prayer, and told God that you don't care if you wake up.
Then, sometimes, you say the prayer that says God, I don't want to wake up, and just take me. But you wake up.
Some days are better than others. Some days are amazing. Some days are bad. Sometimes you can't tell the difference.
I don't know. My childhood was pretty much fucked. I had to get away from my parents, so I signed up for the Air Force.
I couldn't get on the officer track, so I went the NCO route. That's how I ended up as an airman in Wyoming. Eventually became a missile training instructor.
Then, finished my degree. Now, I have a good leadership position in a top company in my field. So, it's been really good. I've had to work insanely hard to get to where I am, and making what I'm making. And, for the most part I'm happy. For the most part. But sometimes, I still don't feel like I want to wake up. Even though I always do.